I still remember...911

I will admit that after 11 years I'm still kinda salty about the whole 911 issue.

It was not just the loss of so much of My possessions that bother Me still, but more about the memory of the attitudes of so many people I knew and worked with and how I was treated right afterwards.

And maybe that is another reason why I don't go home as much as I used to too?

Because what I remembered the most about the whole 911 event was the attitude of everyone. (family included)

And how Americans turned on Americans like Myself.

So every time I see bigotry and racism I think of how Americans acted right afterwards towards each other. 

I think about how it felt to be homeless and being told there is nothing home for you to come back too.

I think about being one of the few people trusted enough to set up the set for the Presidents first speech in Atlanta and how the other Union guys acted while we was working that event. 

I think about how angry Americans was.

I think about how READY FOR WAR everyone was.

And I think about the countless amounts of people who died because American was so anxious for a war that so many later blamed so many others OTHER than themselves.

And as I now sit in at least a stable recovery that has taken almost 11 years to get to thus far...

I'm still ashamed of the Americans I remember back during and after 911.  And how they treated each other including Myself.

And I'm most silent in thought still on this day.

Because I remember.

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A Pimpstyle RANT worth reading during Ramadan.

As a Black non Christian Man, I find the need to sometimes lash out at the ignorance of My own and how I too feel connected by default.

And for that reason I feel the need to leave this rant here and not out there in the world on front street.

Sometimes My people don't think about how their words they leave on public threads are gonna come off to the rest of the viewing world, or even care how or why.

This reverse "Coonery" many seem to be comfortable with expressing as a fine example of our race.

It aint like there are many like us in the world.
We have become the last genetic mutation of many others from our generations that made us just black.

And I don't mean that there is anything wrong with that because I was raised to believe that Black is beautiful.

But these negro's out here can't let go of their own bullshit fast enough to notice that everyone else in the world views all of us AS IS.

And THAT is the part that I hate the most.
And hate is a very powerful word.

And if there is ONE thing that black folks can admit if they are at least worth shit is that we have to admit that all of us as a whole aint ready or even strong enough to see things from a world perspective and not a black American view point.

And every last one of us are very unique mutations of more other races and tribes of humans of the world that we are suffering from un-adapt-ability within this new found general populace of the world. And in this case it becomes even more complex because we are also kinky. (what ever that means)

But I'm not one of yall.

I keep trying to say that.
The ONLY thing most of us share in common is our skin color.

And THAT is how it is everywhere else in the world except in many urban areas and social realms in America.

But it pains Me to watch so many slip faster to exclude others of the same color at the drop of a hat and then bat a eye when they need to speak for their race just because...

If it all came down to a simple task of being forced into a broad category?

And you had to pick being just black or something else but that would mean that you had to stand with them or the black people?

More black folks would bail like they did with Obama's election.

It's a socially cultural issue.

Most black people talk as if they will never be faced with living abroad where their culture conflicts with your own and make that place your home. Let alone, be shown that others find you all more hip-o-critical just because in the BDSM mentality? Your or should I say OUR reality does not apply in a world perspective.

And many are now learning that back folks are so diverse that they will turn on each other faster than they can relate as a whole.

And if a black person admits the ugly truth of their own people in general or even statistically?

Some black person will make it their business to disown one of their own, and none of us are here to hang out with everyone. Most of us will never meet.

But Black people have been making Me sick of their sickness in masses.
Because they black asses aint trying to be a asset to their race.

And speaking of race?

*blank stare*


Who is it to say that black folks know the ONLY way to treat black folks better than they can do to each other honorably?

The ONE thing I will admit...

I may not say something that everyone will get with...
I may in fact say some shit that many will debate out of ignorance.
And there aint that many of us in these lifestyles anyway.

So on any given day I have to deal with some person of color coming out they mouth on some dumb shit like the shit I leave in print is some bullshit.
Just because from where they see it?
Something I say is some bullshit because they can't admit that they are as well read as I am enough to leave respect at the end of it..lol

Not that black folks are slow learners...

But Americans as a whole got this shit twisted.

From a world perspective.

Most black American people Have never traveled at least 10 thousand miles in their lifetime. And in most cases it was from one black cultural environment to another to visit family.

And our history is too vast for many of them to agree to compare history and not debate their own from what they have known all of their lives.

And just in case you forgot?

Some of us may be African Americans, but we are not Africans enough to have duel citizenship.

So few black people in this world are upper metaphysical thinkers just as every other race of people of the world.

I wish more people of color were conditioned enough to be able to relate more than debate just because you come from some culture that conflicts with the shit some other black person wrote.

Like this race shit...

Just because you can't get with some shit someone else is into?
Don't mean that you have to show your black asses in masses on some thread that fucked with your black mentality.

And too many black folks take shit others write personally.

And this shit is killing Me to not just have to see another sister or brother leave another example of reverse "Coonery" while they try to be seriously funny.

So in closing?

Making a long rant shorter than you would know...

The ONLY reason why I leave something from My viewpoint is just incase someone can take something that may make them grow.

Even if it makes no sense to someone.
If they are smart?

It should not matter what color you are.

But I am talking about black folks in general.

And POCs...

There is about a handful of any amount of us that can even be counted as the Kinky Americans.


That makes even minorities to small to even make a POC community.
But some of yall POCs be on some other shit.

But don't let THAT be the reason why too many of you are guilty of reverse "Coonery" than Me!

*evil stare*

I was raised Pro Black.
And child of very active parents in the civil rights movement and supporters of the Black Power Movement.

I gives a fuck about Kewl Points.

Not one damn word I typed was a lie.

I know My people better than most of them know themselves.

And I hate to have to admit it to too many of them around these parts...lol
They aint listening to a damn thing I say.

#### "Niggers and flys, niggers and flies. How I despise niggers and flies. But the more I see niggers the more I like flies..."
The Last Poets?

I love black people.
Black people are Me.
But one thing black people are not ready for...

Black People are not ready for the revolution.

Yet...

[first interview with Martin Luther King from 1957 part 2](http://youtu.be/HXlfeeh_Wqg)
Watch the damn video.
*Pay attention to the white man on the right/left.*
How right were they when they planned to put all of us as Americans today?


If I have to be stuck in My faith during a time of prayer and fasting?
Because I want too.

I want to pray that there will come a day when more black people and people of color and of different faiths, will see further than their own noses.

And most of all I am gonna also pray that People of color will stop treating each other as if one or the other deserve less than the same respect they try to protect. Because that's all they know as who they are in this country.

Treat each other no less or no better than you would treat someone at face value of another color.

The miseducation of the Negro in America is proof enough that too many of us are not ready to deal with a different type of person of color having the same right to their opinion and the same honor to respect where they come from too. Even if it conflicts with you.


I love black folks too much to be forced to expect better from them.
And they don't understand what I'm talking about.



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How much old heritage can we apply to todays new reality out of respect for what it was?

The passing of the torch to a new generation.

How much of the past is relevant to what is available to us in the future?

Our history has been paved with good intentions.


But here's something that I have been entertaining in My head about this subject as of late...

My Brother spoke of a OATH and Promise of passing on what has been given to the Elders before us about these traditions and lessons of conditioning and respect for these styles of lifestyles that many of us now find more in open view for all to find and use for our cultural needs as who we have been in the past to be where we are right now.

But what I find to be a difficult twist to have to now reflect out of respect for our reality more than the expectations of a certain ORDER and PROTOCOL that our elders have been blessed with the duty of passing on to the next generations to come.

But THIS has been the FIRST year that I have found there is now a few twist that even our elders never foresaw.

First is membership and inclusion.

NOW, we are all faced with a conflict with the options offered by our past laws respected by our elders. That conflict first becomes as simple as our new realty.

I remember having several debates and conversations with many others including many of our respectable elders who boldly stated a reality that we as of this year are faced with a exception that was never offered. That option was the understand that as long as we are black or POCs in America. We will NEVER see in OUR LIFETIME a black or POC become elected to become the FIRST black and POC president of THIS country. And I remember hearing them honestly admit that this country is NOT ready to handle that kind of new found respect for their content of character and not the color of their creed.

They said humbly that we can not feel all is lost while we have to respect that NOT IN OUR LIFETIME will our people as well as America as a whole will NOT allow that image to exist without a severe revolt from the masses who have been conditioned to not allow such a reality to become our history.

And when I think back to many of the times I have had to respect My elders faith over their fantasies of a impossible prediction.

But look at us today.

We still have a Black or POC President of this country!

But we Never have been prepared for this amount of evolution into what we now are faced with as a country as a whole.

Not just black and POCs who have been defined as too unstable of a mentality as a people to not overly abuse our new found freedom and foundation from where we have come from our American past history.

And even non black and POC type Americans are suffering from a self imposed fear of the possibilities of a reality of others knowledge of the character of people they have been raised thus far to believe blacks and POCs are able to respectfully honor as NOW full members of this countries dynamic that was never expected to EVER become this multi racial and civil.

And this is the FIRST twist in a reality that non of our elders expected was in need of being more trained and prepared to not just respect but to honor without fear of being bamboozled by the "other man" who has grown to believe that our genetic structure as a race can not be trusted with such a responsibility when we have been persecuted so severe enough to expect a back lash because we may not receive reparations for past suffering of others who have now grown out of the need to be entitled as a oppressor.

And EVERYTHING right now is too extremely different from where our elders were conditioned to respect for the need of our own protocols and previsions custom made for what our race had been defined as.

But that slight reality and change of reality as we know it now has changed EVERYTHING that was made to not belittle our people as they have become.

So while I desire to honor My elders.

I am now stuck with a NEW reality. And I as well as everyone else in this country are also suffering from a unexpected twist in fate that has not fueled our fears that were once taught to be a need for caution as to how possible for blacks and POCs to become productive partners of the American way...

So that first reality is becoming a difficult twist in fate and reality to justify some of the customs that are put in place to better prepare our people to become more respectable citizens of a country that was formed under the reality of that time in history as a reason to consider the ability for blacks and POCs to become just as much of responsible and respectable partners in this countries importances.

Now...

The next image I wish to paint is something else that has not been considered as a need to be better prepared for being more free as a character of people as a whole from many others in our past who never saw the evolution of the blacks and POCs being able to not just mix or melt into one country undivided but the ability for us to genetically become considered equal.

But we are not just free. We are overly exposed to the same new reality and freedom that everyone has not found within the WORLD WIDE WEB.

So how do we now teach a tradition that was passed down from our elders when these new blacks and POCs are faced with a freedom that has just become not just a new reality but has become a contradiction to a rule that was shamefully taught to everyone at a point in American history.

So now comes the twist.

We as older adults who have had some education offered to us by our elders of our past generations and cultures.

How ready are we to be able to deal with being able to offer JUST WHAT the younger generation may desire to learn without having to deal with your conditioning of that past protocol of crawling before we walk when these new generations are faced with a reality that has never existed before in our genetic reality as a whole.

Meaning?

If you find yourself being questioned by a younger generation that wants to better learn how to respect the beauty of what these lifestyles have to offer all of us as responsible adults, because they want to also respect their heritage and add their own style to what they already have been told is the ugly truth about what black people and POCs are capable of dealing with after all the abuse they have recorded as such.

But what about generation X,Y, and Z as well as these newly free babyboomer adults that are now finding themselves back into the populace of adluts just because they have found them selves of sound mind and body at a older age than they have been taught was possible.

So what do you offer someone who May not want to respect the structure of OLD GUARD protocols and mentalities that are out of date as a reality of what we are and what we have a options as who we are now in reality compared to what have been understood as what we can be if we are offered a fair equality as American people and now un_evolved animals and natives.

So if a young adult wishes to learn more about these traditions and cultural protocols of a different breed of human than what they have learned they are, but they don't want to respect everything they feel does not apply to their character. So all they want is a few pointers as a structure and not a all or nothing clause of what they have to be in order to be respected today as they reinvent their new dynamic as they are blessed to freely explore.

Like sex, and non emotional sexual conduct between casual partners without being shun for disrespecting the morality we have been raised with from our elders. So trying to tell them in their dynamic that they CAN NOT reinvent their own style or path without following a set of rules that were never considered the possibilities of being more free as a people than we have ever been in our American history.

So while we have been given a certain structure of conduct and morality to be our guide as blacks and POCs? We are faced with considering some of our customs taught by our elders to be out dated if not redefined due to our drastic sift in reality of whom we all are and who we are not.

So can people who have been taught a certain format that now has changed by our new reality of todays freedoms as a people?

Or are we faced with a struggle of not being as stuck as our elders of the past had no insight enough to expect a new image of who we are today as a people compared to what we had no ability to predict this amount of change.

We are not just stuck with the options that have been basic laws of reality. But we are now a bit too free to explore the amount of options that were in the past told is too much for our people to respectfully respect.

So how do you assist someone from the hip hop generation who wants to custom make a respectable lifestyle that has never been open to exploration as a whole?

Can the old guard learn from a new generation how to better live a new freedom that was never allowed to entertain?

That depends on our ability to adjust our own laws of morality as it pertains to our races of people who now are not prevented from exploring new options of a new reality.

This is NOT our grandparents lifestyle anymore.

So how can we respect our heritage without feeling that we are not the same type people as many of the people in the past have grown to respect as the way it is and who we are rather we like it or not.


That is our issue today.

And that is no easy task.

Explaining to the newer generation what they have today as better options than we have ever had in our American history.


How do we PIMP our lifestyle without offending the older generation who have deep seated issues with the use of the word PIMP as well as honor our ability to honor these lifestyles that have been examples of a little of the old with new adjustments pending.

All of this is too new to risk being too new to share a honor worth being connected to our own past.

But it is now what it is now.


We got work to do. And we may be the ones who need to learn what today is that is not what we were or were not.




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